I am so discouraged with myself.
On Tuesday morning I jumped on the scale. I wanted to see my damage from vacation so I could get off those few lbs I had gained. So it wasn't just a few lbs it was more like 7 lbs. All week long I was trying to eat better, watch my points, etc. I wasn't eating clean, but I was staying within my WW point range.
I am not going to lie and say I've been good, but I haven't been awful either! This morning I hopped on the scale again and saw a number I haven't seen in MONTHS, YEARS! It was up almost 10 lbs from the beginning of the summer. I've gained almost 10 lbs this summer!
So here lies the reason I'm depressed. 10 lbs is huge for me. I've totally just fallen off the wagon and I need some help jumping back on. I know that probably half of that is water. No way I've not been that bad. It is past time to jump back on board.
The number that my scale read is now plastered in my mind. I even put it in HUGE numbers on my computer so I could see it. Every time I want a bite of this or that, that number will be staring me down. Hey, it works for me, so don't' knock it!
At Phit and Phat, Corinne gives us daily/weekly menus we can use. I've already printed them off and I'm starting my grocery list. Enough is enough. I can't let 10 lbs turn into 15 or 20. I'm just disgusted with myself.
However, starting today I'm back on. No more being down and depressed. This is a change I have to make and I'm not letting that number derail me.
As for my exercise plan:
I'm thinking I'll start training for another half marathon. Sure, I didn't lose much weight last year, but it kept me at the maintain point. Once I drop these few lbs 8-10, hovering around 150 is fine with me. In fact, I feel good at 150 lbs. So starting in August, I'll start my running up again. Maye the next week will allow me to shed a few lbs before doing so.
I really have aspirations of doing a full marathon one day. Dawn called me last night and she and I discussed it. Depending upon my future family, I'm thinking I may do a full marathon with her March 2010. You may be asking why not this March? Well, if I'm up for it, I may just do it. If I train for another 1/2 marathon from now until December, I'm half way to a marathon. If I keep up my after my December 1/2 then ideally I'll be ready for a full come March.
I'm just thinking here. I know for now I need to get back in good shape and running seems to be best way of doing that.
I'm going to post my grocery list later today for you to see. Listen, this blog was created for this exact purpose. Helping me stay on track. I can do this, I can do this!
BBL to post my grocery list!